My Suicidal Romoance

I stood, stand, standing there, here
...Where?
Doesn't matter...
But I'm standing somewhere
Here in the middle of confussion
Between Love and Devotion
and Care with Feelings
I stood there confussed as I
admit my feelings... of care
But yet I am so deeply in love with Rei
Devoted, Feelings for, Care for... etc
I don't ever never want to leave him
He has my heart...
I don't attempt to take it back.
because I want him to have it.
But then Vincent... I only have feelings
Only... the ones to care... but once sexual.
But all I wish to give him is my hand
to cry in,... to hold..., to ask "will it be ok?"
Feeling mixed inside me...
Anger, Love, Tears, Psychotic Chaos...
My heart in Rei's hand
feeling him close when yet so far.
Working I think nothing but of him
Crying knowing he's being hurt...
then wishing I could save him
Tears down my cheek as I stand
there looking in the sky's face.
Wondering...Questioning...
What would it do?
As I stood, I thought...
if Rei is gone...then its like suicide
...it's no reason for me to excite afterwards...
For Rei I push forward...
for Rei I try to go on...
So that I may rescue him
from his torture...
And only Rei I will love...
Forever...
For he is my Suicidal Romance.

Farewll my Trust

I had a brother
close, my heart
We always fought ofcourse
but we loved eachother close
I trusted him until one day...
one unfaithful day, he betraded me
I asked him for his help with an enemy
He fell in love with the enemy
I did't care because I was happy for him.
Unfortunatly she broke his heart then said
He was going to kill my wife
What trust could I hold for him?
How could I trust him again?
He asked me for forgiveness...
But how could I forgive that?
Then he says... he was ordered...
My anger rose as I... I did the worse
I divorced him as my brother
anounced him my enemy
Now I regret my doing that but
I already done and said it
Farewell My Trust...

A Moment (Sequal One)

Tired...Fusterated...Pissed...Sad...etc etc

many reasons why
I miss nii-san already
oddness between exs and ohs
somehow worried about Jakotsu
something something Sephiroth
soemthing something Sai


*stands there stareing at the ocean*
what can one do about these problems?

His Pain

He goes threw so much pain
Daily
But he shows me a smile
Sadly
His pain it shows
I can see it
But he still shows me a smile
Despite it
It pains me to see him this way.
Even thou I've never felt it
I know he cries inside
But I'd like him to cry outside
I dont want him to shell it in
Please let it out
Sometimes his pain makes me wish
I was Superman, but I'm not
People laugh when they heard that
Because they think he's lying
But I think they envy me
Still thou his pain is mine.
Even I dont feel it...
I feel someone I love being hurt..

Day After Tomorrow.

Tomorrow bad winds...
Much Rain pours down
Tomorrow is work?
a Sunday, an April 15 of 2007
You mite be wondering...
Why is she writing this?
Well I am drawing or if you like...writing
this because....
I saw the movie
"Day after Tomorrow"
When I heard the land is ice
While the air is a cold fire
Where death appers in a white cape
with the cold vapers of smoke
raising from its eating hole
The Day after Tomorrow is for now
a frighting thought that holds
3,000 secrets, 2 million deaths
and only 1 Judgement...
So tell me...
Seeing the weather is going
to be like in the movie...
Will the Day after Tomorrow be the same?
Will we meet the death in a white cape?
Or....or did we meet it already?
Did it? Is it?
...already The Day after Tomorrow.

Moon Light Cherry Blossom

The Sun is setting, Clouds of Dragons look of breathing fire. Wind rides slowly, grazing whatever it touches, softly sending pleasent chills down the nerves causing hairs to stand on end. As the wind blows its beautiful tune, the water settles down swaying smoothly, whisphering to the tune of the wind. Warming && pleasent, sweet && relaxing, tender on the ears and soothing for the eyes. Sand moist as the turtle crawls across to the nearest sleeping cherry blossom. Blossoms are fully windened as its sweet scent lays with the wind in a flirt && tease. Sun sets silently, while the cloud dragons drift away to the east clearing the skies and exposing it of it's most beautiful jewels, the diamond stars. The palm trees began to whistle to the tune of the wind && water. Reflection of the jewels on the mirrored water. The turtle is gone under the waves, cherry blossom sighs as the tiger awakens from its slumber && comes from its small haven near the blossom tree. Tiger lays in the water at peace and calm, it's eyes half closed, murmuring the joyous feeling tingling in its body. The trees, blossom && palm, sway again from wind. Sleep is needed as it drifts over the other creathures that are awake, a yawn is given and shared. Eyes of the hidden creatures droop low. Sleep now as the trees dig their roots deeper into the golden brown wet soil && sand. Grunts && shifts then sleeps. This is the night of the Moon Light Cherry Blossom.

Introduction

This blog is coming soon. It will consist of stories and poems and even freelance silance stories painting pictures. This is not a professional type of story writing, because I have been out of writing for sometime now. One story that I am working on, that I havent decided on posting up yet, is The Gemini's. My grammer is very bad and I will try my best to make sure it is correct. On to a better introduction of myself, my name is Tatiana.A.W and I am currently waiting on entry into bootcamp for the NAVY. I am very excited. I like to write , draw edit, play game, read codes and even change codes. I am not on as often because I work alot and workout as much as I can. I love music, it gives me the inspiration I need and clears my mind of other thoughts. Pretty soon I will be buying a new IPOD to load more music onto so as to do more writing. Lance Armstrong is my hero, find him to be a very strong and focused indiviual and hope to become like him in my ownway. My rating in the NAVY is GSM (Gas Turbine System Tech), however I am hopeing to switch to either Diver or Search and Rescue. My Facebook, Myspace and other items are attached to this page in case you'd like to add me on those. Often you will see any art I do has my logo art name [.Y.K PINK APPLE.] that will be changed to a more unique [.Y.K INK APPLE.]. A story and Poem will be coming soon to REDSTRING...

-T.A.W AKA Y.K.Ink Apple