My Suicidal Romoance

I stood, stand, standing there, here
...Where?
Doesn't matter...
But I'm standing somewhere
Here in the middle of confussion
Between Love and Devotion
and Care with Feelings
I stood there confussed as I
admit my feelings... of care
But yet I am so deeply in love with Rei
Devoted, Feelings for, Care for... etc
I don't ever never want to leave him
He has my heart...
I don't attempt to take it back.
because I want him to have it.
But then Vincent... I only have feelings
Only... the ones to care... but once sexual.
But all I wish to give him is my hand
to cry in,... to hold..., to ask "will it be ok?"
Feeling mixed inside me...
Anger, Love, Tears, Psychotic Chaos...
My heart in Rei's hand
feeling him close when yet so far.
Working I think nothing but of him
Crying knowing he's being hurt...
then wishing I could save him
Tears down my cheek as I stand
there looking in the sky's face.
Wondering...Questioning...
What would it do?
As I stood, I thought...
if Rei is gone...then its like suicide
...it's no reason for me to excite afterwards...
For Rei I push forward...
for Rei I try to go on...
So that I may rescue him
from his torture...
And only Rei I will love...
Forever...
For he is my Suicidal Romance.